Burnt out

Bruised, burnt and stumbling
Slowly I look around to see why everyone is silent
As I look around, I see no smiles
The smiles have disappeared
Everyone’s wondering what’s happened
Can they not see that I am bruised and I’m struggling
How can I smile with the limp in my step
How can I be cheerful when there’s a knife in my back
Surely they have not closed their eyes
Assuredly someone can see my condition
Otherwise why have they stopped smiling?

Whither

I looked for my love and I found him not
I called and he did not answer
I wondered if he’d heard
Once again, I called
He did hear and he smiled
I wonder if he will forever hear my call
It matters not
My heart is what calls to my love
Our hearts beat as one and yearn for the same things
In a beat we are together

Almost

Today I was very hurt
I felt everyone was against me
I was ready to fight
I was defensive
I judged people
Then I asked myself what I was doing
Was I being true to whom I say I am?
Did I really want to remember today as a day I was just bitter
Did I just want to waste today because of some people
Can I truly not love these people?
Then I answered myself
Child, you can love. You need to forgive. Today is a gift that you should accept and cherish as it is God’s creation.
Then I smiled and ignored all the fiery darts coming my way
I am a child of God wonderfully and fearfully made
I will rejoice in this day
I will rejoice evermore.

happiness

Some say it's a journey
Some say you cannot touch it
Some say it comes naturally
I know it's not easy to come by especially when you want to share it
When you choose to share your life with someone,
It's not easy to agree
that you've finally found your happiness
I know that when I'm there I'll know that this is what it feels like
For now I'll content myself with the sweet smell of happiness as I trudge on with life
It smells so sweet I cannot wait to touch it
It can only be bliss.

life as seen by some1

Life can really be hard
Sometimes you feel like giving up
Many times I feel overwhemed
I take a step back and consider
Would it make sense if I gave up now?

Did I come this far just to give up?
What if I hang on just a little bit just to see what happens next
And so here I am waiting to see what happens next
I ponder as I wait
Life is really worth the while

Many times we've been let down
Many times we feel like quitting
But I guess so
metimes we just stick around to see what happens next
And so we all wait to see what's coming next
As I wait I might as well enjoy the view

Again I ask
Is it worth the wait?
Definitely
ABSOLUTELY !

I'm sorry

It's not everyday that I regret actions that I take
It's also not often that I don't 4give
I wasn't rational in my actions
I was selfish and I blamed you for what was out of your control
I don't know how to face you
If I could sing, I'd write you a song
If my smile could change things, I would look for you and grin wide
If only I had had the heart to realise in hurting you I would be torturing myself
Now here I am alone without a friend or someone to tell how I feel
It's lonely where I am and all I can shout are these three words

I AM SORRY.

I truly am sorry for wronging you the way I did
I miss your friendship
I cannot carry on alone
I can only walk by your side
So wait is what I'll do.

I'm sorry.

Meaning

Just because I'm quiet doesn't mean I don't have anything to say
just becoz I don't yell
doesn't mean I have no voice
just becoz I'm smiling doesn't mean all's well as it ought to be
don't you think I just want to be quiet for some time ?
Maybe 2moro I'll be in a mood to be vocal
maybe I mean it this time.

Forgive

It's easier to love after someone has shown you love
it's easier to give when you've received without asking
but it's not easy to forgive when all you've done is love
someone and given them all you have and they cannot
see that you care
but forgive we will as it hurts us more
when we do not forgive.

They say you're my friend

They say a friend is someone who’ll walk beside you
Some say they’re the one who’ll be there to catch you when you fall
Some say they’ll be the one to sit next to you and say nothing but help you cry
Some say they’re the one who knows all your secrets
Some say they’re the one who’ll always stick by your side and back you up no matter what
I say a friend is who you are.