As I look

As I look back

I see the tears

Tears of joy

Tears of sadness

 

I see love

Love for self

Love for others

Love for me

Love unknown

 

I see anger

Anger at self

Anger at life

Anger towards others

Anger at the world

Anger at God

 

 

I see wishes

Wishes for more

Wishes for change

Wishes for peace

Wishes for love

Wishes untold

 

I see family

My natural family

My inherited family

My worldly family

My inevitable family

My family of friends

Families just made

Families still to come

 

I see dreams

Dreams come true

Dreams yet to be dreamt

Dreams lost

Dreams yet to materialise

Dreams to be

 

I see smiles

Smiles of loved ones

Smiles of self

Smiles of those I now know

Smiles of those I’ll never know

Smiles hidden from others

Smiles too precious to ignore

Smiles so true they remind one of God’s love

 

I see me

I see you

I see them

I see us

I see God at work.

As I look back..

 

 

When I look at this year I can smile a broad smile

I can grin shamelessly

This year was indeed a year of blessings

I look forward to the years to come

With a grin once again

No grimace on the horizon

Just simple glee

The new beginnings of 2008 have started to bear fruit

I cannot wait for the future!

A new someone

Just someone I now know

 

Anyone could have known

 

Chances were against you

 

Obviously we’re very different

 

But somehow we’ve made it this far.

Different

We’re different people

But our similarities are much more than our differences

Yet the differences are glaring for all to see

How do we manage it?

How come it’s not obvious to some that we are just like each other?

How do we manage to see that we are different?

How do we manage to live with our differences?

Could it be because one's male and the other's female?

Big difference eh?

Clean closet

It’s all in the past
People bring it up
It’s meant to change things, so they say
It changed my perspective, back then
Why should it change yours now?
Skeletons in the closet
That’s what they call it
If I have one, I’m emptying it
I’m gradually bringing it all out

Why?
So that we have a closet that anyone can open
And take what they may and see what’s there
The past will always be that
Past

The past
I’ve learnt from it
I’ve matured becoz of it
Some of it is forgotten
Some with scars cannot be forgotten
They're all memories
But it’s all in the past
Everyone has a past
We can start creating ours now.

Whither.....

How far are we going?
We set of separate
We found each other on the path
We took the same route
We started conversing
We enjoyed each other’s company
We love the scenery
How far are we going?
“We” coz we’re on the same path
We don’t mind the distance
But at times I tend to ask
How far are we going?
It’s a “just” coz I really don’t mind

Action

Run

Care

Smile

Listen

Laugh

Forgive

Receive

Touch

Learn

Hate

Pray

Love

Give

Talk

Shout

Share

Scream

Walk

Rest

Hide

Talk

Cry

 

Which do you wish you could do right now?

 

Which did you do last and why?

 

Which do you want to start?

 

Which do you want to stop?

 

Which are you doing now?

 

Which do you miss?

 

I’m smiling.

 

I'm loved.

 

Just us

You do it just to show it is possible

You do it to teach me how to do otherwise

You do it to show me your desires

 

I react to show I care

I react to show I hurt

I retaliate to show I also can

 

You do it to see if I will react

You do it to see how I’ll react

You do it to find out if it matters

 

I do it as that’s how I feel

I do it to prove a point

I do it to prove it doesn’t matter

 

We do it so that we learn together.

The meeting

My cup overflows

Unexpected all this was

Petitioned at sometime though

My faith still wavered

Hence the lack of anticipation

 

Faithless I stood

Due to the past

Experience had hardened my heart

Silent it stood amongst the moving world

Silent I thought I’d always be

 

At a moment unfathomed

It all happened

Rebuff was the natural reaction

Persistence was the guest’s norm

Normal I finally found the encounter

 

Faithless I started

Faithful He remained

I discovered unwavering faith

There’s still more to discover

From where I stand, the view is amazing.

Evidence

A child of many thoughts actually
In one way fulfilling a need I have
In another fulfilling a request made by a friend
Why fulfil them?
That’s just how it goes with me

When I cannot show anything for a claim
I look for that evidence
When I do not find it, I do one of two things
Start creating evidence from thence
Or ditch the claim

Here I’ve started the paper trail
Will I ever ditch this?
I doubt that
Why?
That’s just the way it is with me

Some things remain the way they are-JUST

Right now

A whimsical fact this is actually
Wanting to do something and actually doing it
Despite it’s nature
Out of character I’d have thought at some time
But at present very much a part of me
A new creation of some sorts I’d like to say
But dated it actually is
Just a fancy of the moment and unstructured it’s starting
I wonder how it’ll fare
Seeing as I’m posting to beat the scheduled post on the blog introducing this
Yes, just a fancy come true.